Perfect World

you know who you are
the one person who i'd be with and marry in a perfect world
this ain't no perfect world
you and i know this
you are my other half
no matter how we fight or argue
i know in a perfect world you are mine
my soul mate
for 9+ years
you were there
we do everything together
through thick and thin
please don't leave me
boys and girls they come and go
sometimes even familybut what i found in you i cannot let go
you complete me
together we'd be in a perfect world but
this ain't no perfect world
and i love you forever and for always
in a not so perfect world

Little Sister

I've Been With You For 18 Years.
And Now Comes The Time You Leave.
The Time For You To Go.
Spread Your Wings.
You've Seen Me Cry
You Know Me Inside And Out
You Know My Darkest Secrets
The Good And The Bad
All I Really Had Was You.
Not Anymore..
Everyday We Drift Apart.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Not Good To You
I'll Be Here For You
Whenever You Call Or Need
I'll Be There
I Wish You Would'nt Go But,
It's Your Time Now
Please Make It Count
Don't Do What I Did
Make The Most Of It.
Have Fun.
Your Life Starts Here.
Do What You Can.
Change The World.
I'm Proud Of You.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year 2009
On A Day Suppossed To Be Fun...
Me And My Guy Together At Last
Until She Came.
Hell Rose Around Me.
Shunned And Humiliated.
Called Selfish And Stupid
Trash And Wrong
First Impressions Matter She Said.
Does She Know About The Venom In Her Words
It Goes Both Ways.
A Family Broken
As I Lay Embarassed On The Stairwell Of An Apartament In The Bronx.
My Decision Was For Me.
But The Course Of Action Failed.
Why Can't I Be Happy.
There Is A Reason He And I Are No More.
Could This Be It.The Pain I Feel.
The Poison In My Veins.
The Unhappiness.
I'm Not Sure.
He Held Me As I Cried.
And As My Heart Slowly Died.
I Looked Up And Said Goodbye.
Knowing It Had To End There.

Waiting For You

I Took The Train To 4 Times Square..
Walk Around And Wait...
Light A Cigarette And Wait...
Walk In And Out Of Stores...
Calling You Endlessley To Hear The Woman Saying You Are Unavailable...
Watch The Clock Change From 3 To 4 And 4 To 5...
Cigarettes Gone 1 by 1...
I Wait...
Is Today The Day I See Your Face...
Or Do I Go Home A Heartbroken Little Boy..
Is Today The Day My Feelings Change...
Will I Be Happy...
Or Do I Still Have To Wait...
My Life Is Short...
Ending Fast...
This Waiting Will Kill Me..
Why Do I Keep Coming Back...
4 Times Square Is Engraved In My Mind...
As I Wait And Wait And Wait...

Bump It's? REALLY?

Have you ever seen the infomercial for the things known as "Bump It's". Wow. If You Haven't Its A Piece Of Plastic With Teeth That You Are Supposed To Place Between The Parted Hair At The Crown Of Your Head. They Are Supposed To Give You The Illusion Of Voluminous Hair. Really? Have You Seen How Trashy Those Things Make You Look. Are Pieces Of Plastic You Place In Your Hair Supposed To Make You Look Better Or Sexier. They Make It Seem Like If A Girl Went To An A-List Celebrity Party That She'd Have The Shitty Plastic Piece In Her Hair. Umm I Think That's What Volumizing Shampoo Is For. I Mean If The Shampoo Doesn't Work For You I Think It's A Sign You Weren't Meant To Have "Big" Hair. UHHH Not Every Woman Looks Good With Humongous 60's Hair. We Are In 2009 Please Do Something That Fit's The Times. Please......I Think Infomercials Are So Stupid Unless They Are Selling Things That Are Actually Helpful Such As The"ShamWOW" Or "OxyClean" Please I Can't Handle Any More Stupidity.... i.e. "The Snuggie" or "Smittens"

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IDK I Just Stopped Loving You!

What if you wake up one day and you stop loving the person you are with...if you don't have a someone, your best friend...or dog? What happens when the person you said "I Love You" to just before you fell asleep ends up being the person you say "I Hate You" to when you awaken. What made you change your feelings. Was it subconscious, or something that just shut off in your mind. Think about it...What If you told the love of your life, "I Woke Up And Realized I Don't Love You Anymore" It's hard for me to understand this but it happens. I don't know how or why, but it does. If it is subconscious, could it happen to you.. or me without warning. Right now as you sleep is there a possibility of losing someone great because your brain just stops short. It's A Scary thing to think about.


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Mind Games

It's 5:17am And I'm Wide Awake. I Find When All Is Quiet And Dark And I Lay In Bed The Dark Thoughts I've Kept At Bay All Day Creep Their Nasty Poison Into My Brain. I Lay Awake For Hours Thinking And Analyzing All That Happened The Previous Day And Wonder What Could Have Been Done Differently. I Believe If Things Happen They Happen And Move On, But Why Do I Over Think When I Usually Don't. Is This Some Kind Of Subconscious Mind Game That My Body Plays With Me While I Lay Down To Rest. Its Been 2 Months Since This Has Been Happening And I Hardly Sleep. I Really Do Not Know... Please Take Me Away From It All.


xoxo Don't Forget
iHeartPhillyJ xoxo